I'm not quite sure how long I will kept this writing thing up, but I guess like my sister said "every time you say it, the heaviness of it will ease off a bit more". Gonna keep unloading this until there's nothing left to unload. Mandi has a point "try not to say anything about him", is going to be the main part of this or at least don't mention his name! (I mean if I'm gonna unload shit, things with him will bound to turn up, until one day it doesn't really matter)
It's so strange to be looking at the previous posts, so much stuff is applicable now. Still. I guess previously I just say it to make myself feel better. But now that I'm actually old, I need to do something about it.
- more love + patience towards my family (most important goal of 2018)
-mini goals: help out more around the house, breathe and use a nice tone, hold my tongue
- continue to, or exercise more
- mini goals: on days I don't actually feel like working out, be sure to at least do squats, lunges and kicks home
- finish books I have
- mini goals: no phones, just straight reading
- list: the subtle art of not giving a fuck, paris for one, a man called ove, still me, the alice network
- continue to cut back on junk food/ bad food:
- mini goals: out of sight out of mind! Don't buy them at all!
- continue this friend relationship and not lose my shit and check times etc.
- mini goals; turn last online off?
- do better at work
- mini goals: take more initiation and get off my lazy ass (but it's so coooold)
- take more initiation to meet up with friends:
- mini goals: going on lunch, dinner dates, message people I want to touch base with again
- Joanne, Fatima, Serena, Ronald, Bobby, Mandi, Michelle, Samson/ Marquez
- LET THINGS BE AND GO WITH THE FLOW
All these sounds very familiar.
