day:41 HOMG

post pic, write more later, ohgawd i dont thk i know where to start heehee

oh gawd,
i miss you so much already
i cant sleep
O_____O

day:forty-two

ok so this post is a day late..agn cause i just realized the time just passed 12. So im officially done my midterms and i get to rest for a while now, maybe a week? i really have to do well now, i got 26/40 for my buec midterm, which is 4marks below average. What am i gonna do? And my cmpt...sigh lets not mention it..yet.
This morning i woke up and saw an inbox from lgj i was soooo happy cause i thought he was in Taiwan or going to Taiwan already. Turns out there's wi-fi at the airport and lgj inbox-ed me. Then i went to go check lgj's blogspot and he finally wrote a new blog :)). I just wanna say, im more depended on you then you are on me in oh so many ways. Idk why but im kinda sad that ljg is going to taiwan for 5days (im so self fish :/) it seems like im too used to refreshing my facebook page every 5secs to see whether he replied haha. See? I really cant live without you, no, no even for 5 days. Guess i'll hug bab everywhere i go to survive these 5days.
my head really hurts from lack of sleep these few days, and going to lifelab tmrw, wish me luck.

day:forty5

hahahahah cuuuute i must show beh!
i wanna be nerdy too 8-)

sigh i keep skipping days and not writing in here. im such a lazy ass.
Yesterday i was a zombie for most of the cause i had to stay up and finish my assignment 2. Then at around 6 we (me dad mom) went to yuki's house for dinner. Tiffany was there too :D shes sooo cute i spent most of the dinner playing with her. Shes growing up so quickly shes going to playgroups and daycares. I taught her how to count to 5 and how to say pig LOL. then we went to the nightmarket and it was kinda boring other than gorgor got me a itouch case :)

So then i was reading this long lost notebook yesterday. I thk it was from grade10 ? 11? & hoooollly. i was such a sad child. I mean its not even funny. All my writings were so...so..dark?
like my cuttings my cryings and just the things i do. Most of the pages were crinkly and smudge so i thk i was crying while writing most of them. After the "david" incident lol i love how its an incident. I was so terrible and dark and ugly for so long. I skipped so many classes, started hanging out with the "wrong" crowd. I was so pathetic i even started smoking for a week in attempt to get "their crowd". i never really talked about it with anyone, cause its so shameful. Whats wrong with me? Now that i thk back about it, i thk im really dumb and stupid for doing all those things for someone thats that worth it at all. I say that now cause ive moved on. the past memories dont haunt me anymore. But at that moment. It was hell. Everyday i would go to school and think of ways to get his attention, everynight i would read our old texts and old msn convos and cry myself to sleep. ERM. saaai mm saai a? Hes not worth it at all, as im writing this i dont know what i saw in him in the first place. not at all. I thk im just stubborn, thats why i wouldnt let go before. i wasted 3+ years for him. really? him? woow. i dont recall any happy memories with him, just many days of arguing and ignoring. aii. i was such a retard. I feel so much better after writing this out, idk why. Goodbye old diaries, goodbye texts goodbye msn conversations, in the trash can you go. Im gna replace them with good memories :)

my day for tdy hmmm
not much happened me and my sister woke up at 11 to clean up the room and vacuum the house and stuff cause uncle is staying for 2days. Then we went to eat at mcds cause not enough time to eat before uncle comes. Then me and +jeh just chilled a bit till he came. Then im suppose to study but i fell asleep ORZ.then we went to eat at juuuueee lol AGN. at 6.
when i got home lgj was online so i got to msn him (((: but my days are kinda boring so not much to talk about. He got a sore throat :( cause dom is kinda sick and spread jor bey kui. Hopefully he gets better before going on his trip D: . talking about being sick, my fucking allergies are back. My eyes are so watery and red and swollen and i kept sneezing and shit. I look like death. should be better soon *crossfinger. i really really really cant wait till next tuesday (:
better days to come hang in there sharon cm sham ! :)

sigghhhh i cant wait till the fun part of summer starts

day:47

heeheee first real flowers from a boy <3

ok, so today was a really long day. ok so long day is an understatement. it was a hella long day. It was so long it felt like it was 2days. gau mang.
the best part about my day was probably lgj calling me :). We didnt really talk thaaat long, but yea it was nice and it made me happy to just hear his voice. Afterwards i just kinda got rdy and went to school for my fucking buec midterm which i think i failed. (pls let me do well,,please.) Then i bused to aberdeen to wait for michelle to get off work. I went to the foodcourt and saw vvn eating with pauline and jeffrey so i went to save vvn lol. no seriously. pauline and jeffrey is so lovey dovey, its hard to stand. Anyways so i talked with vvn and we decided and confirmed who's going to dinner and stuff and me and hilda has to buy brian a present! can't forget!! Then mii got off work and her daddy came to pick us up. Then it was just working at her place. But ACTUALLY, travis bb suddenly got really really clingy to me so spent like 6-8pm taking care of him, watching cartoons and dolphin videos. Then mii's mama told me to eat dinner with them so i did. So basically i didnt really start wrking till 10 ;^;. But travis b so cute! He kept pushing my back and going "ngor bong jeh jeh oi mor" hahahaha :)
Gosh i HAVE to HAVEEEEE to really do well for cmpt cause i have a bad feeling bout my buec (knock on wood). so tired, being a mommy is not easy at all, i just kinda took care of travis b for a while and im pretty dead now.
more tags and .css to go fml.
47 more days. how am i gna last that long. :(

day: fifty

haha, aww this is really cute

today was such a super duper uber tiring day.
Mainly cause i slept from 430am to 83oam then went to work at 1oopm today. This morning i talked to lgj for about an hour. It was much better than the last convo we had. (heehee chicken wrap ;) ) Just talking/thinking about sleeping on his bed makes me so happy, i really cant wait till i can actually sleep on lgj's bed agn and geeep juu him :$$. Work was pretty hectic cause there were sooo many customers today. But its actually a good thing cause that way i wont thk about being sleepy. After work my +jeh picked me up and we went home for dinner. Dad was done cooking so we got to eat instantly. My dad offer to wash the dishes today so that me n +jeh could go out. After we changed, me and feyfey +jeh went biking (her) & rollerblading (me). We went alll the way to the oval and back and went around the dover park 4 times. We were only gna go around it twice but then we saw mommy so we went around the park twice with her. It was fun just chilling with my +jeh , cause i havent done so for a while. Me and +jeh were being so silly cause we kept singing random songs when we biked/skated and we raced each other :D:D. When i got home i saw lgj's inbox, so i called him. Turns out hes changing so i called him a bit later. Then he had to go yum cha w/ his daddy so he said he'll call me back. So i went to shower. After i showered +jeh told me my phone rang, so i went dwnstairs to call lgj back. We talked for a while, 30mins? jaau hang up cause it was really noisy at his place and i had to go study.

So ytd, was a pretty bad night. thats basically why i didnt really sleep. After i hung up on lgj i felt really bad and i wanted to call him back but i got too scared. So i inbox-ed him. i felt kinda stupid for inbox-ing him when i know he doesn't really get the internet nowadays. i inbox-ed him anyways, then i just kinda played with my itouch beside my parents bed under my covers until he replied. For the first hour i kept thking "great sharon, lei wan chut foooor lah, hes actually mad at you now" after that i started crying. im really scared he doesnt wanna talk to me anymore and got fed up with my stupid attitude. Great. Im the person who "jo chor yeh" and im the one who's crying? Wow, i am a fucking retard. In the second hour i kept thking 4lah hes really not talking to me anymore what am i going to do. I honestly dont thk i can survive not seeing him for 2months let alone not being about to talk to him. around 2 hours later, at 2-ish am lgj replied. When i saw that i got a fb inbox on my touch i wast so happy, but his reply was kinda short and it ended with an lol. Then i thought , great. hes talking in a sarcastic-ronald-lol tone. Like the usual me who's a fucking stubborn ass who loves to "daaau hei" i gave him a one word reply. & the following replies i did were really sarcastic and shit. Cause im like that. i think i got this trait from my dearest daddy. Whenever i argue, even when i know im wrong, i'll argue and argue until i win. But everytime i do that, i'll regret it right afterwrds, cause i always end up saying things that are mean or sound really cocky. I mean when i daau hei with my family they dont really have a choice but to make up with me afterwards cause they're my family. (In my opinion, they are probably being punished for doing smth bad in their past lives thats why they are stuck to have me in their family). But on the other hand when i daau hei with lgj, he gets to choose. he doesnt have to put up with all these shit and attitude i give him. He can just go "fuck this, im done with this shit". But yet he doesnt. & he always end up blaming himself and tum-ing me, when im always the one who screwed up. So i swear, im going to be a better lpj. Im gna be more considerate. And i wont use my manly voice when i talk to lgj. I'll do my best to tum him whenever hes not happy. I'll tell my lgj everything that happens to me, whether its happy or sad. Cause, to be really corny, honesty is the key to a healthy r/s rigggghtttt??. (im so lame ==")
Lastly, i promise myself to not let the past r/s and unhappiness ruin this one. Cause this one is different from the previous one. its much much much better.

iloveyou lgj forever.....+1 :)

day; fiftyone

i wish i would stop letting anger go over my head.
i always end up doing things i regret, saying things i regret saying
sigh, if yer not mad at me, then i guess you would read my blog.
so here it goes,
im sorry for hanging up on you like that,
im sorry i said yea i dont wanna talk to you
truth is i really really wanna talk to you
ever since you left everyday seems longer
im not used to this at all.
not being able to text you throughout the day
not being able to go find you everyday after school on tuesdays and thursdays.
i really really miss you
im sorry i never say these to you
im retarded and fucked up like that
im really scared that if i always call you i'll become too clingy & you'll get annoyed with me
im sorry im so depended on you
im gna learn to be tougher, i promise.
whenever i feel like yer mad at me & dont wanna talk to me,,it'll remind me of that dream i keep having nowadays,
in the dream you suddenly come to realizing im really not worth all your time and effort
whenever i thk of this dream my heart literally aches and ill get teary eyed.
my mom caught me having this dream once,
shes like whats wrong
i wanted to tell her about it, but she wouldnt understand.
i dont thk anyone does.
i dont understand it myself.
im rly messed up.
but no. it hasnt been like that for the past months,
ive never felt so,
so special, so loved
i dont know how to word it but
its like i dont have to put an effort to be tough
like its ok for me to act retarded and stuff
i dont thk i can survive if i lose you
im sorry for putting so much burden on you
its ok if you dont wanna talk to me every single day
i understand
i dont wanna be hogging you all the time
im sorry i dont "tum" you whenever you are unhappy
im really scared the more i say the more i fuck things up
thank you for putting up with me so many times.
i love you

day: fiftytwo

dont feel like writing tdy
gooodbye

day: 53

something cheerful
i laaave the aliens :)

This is so strange. This is only my 9th post but it feels as though a whole month has passed. So idk what i'm doing. My buec midterm is next thursday and lab5 is due next friday, and the monday on the week after i have my cmpt mt then 2days after i have my assignment 2 due. FUCK. for the mts i can study but the assignments i can really do it at all. idk how to do even the simplest lab5. i spent 2 fucking hours on it and i got nth . sighhh. why do i slack so much. I know i shouldnt slack but yet i still do. :( anyways my day. so i woke up around 1o, ate, watched the game (ENGLAND GET YER ACT TGT! i swore not to eat po kok chicken rice for you 4years ago!!!) then i went in to the kitchen read chapter7 but i dont get shit, i spent like 3hours trying to do assignment5 but meh doh mm get. Around 4 Dominic called and said i dont have to go drop off the thing tonight cause hes around my house atm so he can pick it up and he needed to borrow the bathroom. Then a bit later he came and he was with his gf, heehee ho duk yee :P. Homg. but i looked like a zombie when he came. My complete at-home look at its worst Orz. Way to give a first impression. ORZ. His gf is so hak hei, i asked if she wanted to wait inside instead of standing by the door she kept saying no. So it got a little awkward, so i just went back in the kitchen and look at my notes. Then Dominic came back down and then he wanted to say smth, but then went nvm, haha i wonder what he wanted to say. He said they were going to chill at the dike heehee :). After they left i plugged my lappy in and did 20mins cardio and i was already insanely tired. ORZ. Then around7 me and gor gor and this uncle went to dinner at "jue" its sooo goood. When dinner was over gorgor drove me home and when we go to the stop sign at dover park i saw baat jai. I thk. For a sec i thought i was imagining things :S chi jor? Then i texted Dominic and asked him if he was at dover and he said he was. Ok thats all i needed to know to make sure im not retarded. LOL. boring day. work tmr 9 to 6 and work on sunday 9 to 2 and work on monday FML but its father's day dinner tmrw so i guess it'll be better. idk how im gna do everything in time esp lab5 and assignment2. wish me luck! after the 28th my bad luck is gna go bye bye i cant wait at all. WONDER GIRLS with BEH on the 29th and EBISU on july9th :DDDD. i could care less bout my birthday this year cause im turning 2o, but i cant wait to finaaaallllyyyy have a mini gatheringgg :3 especially when shots are involved. i really need a drank :) oh and polly jeh jeh and simon gor gor is on their way driving from calgary now, they'll be here around 6am @ _____ @. ohohohohohohoh, i saw this ad in this mag the other day for a diet pill and you can buy it from shoppers' i wonder if it wrks maybe i should give it a try !!
PLS LET THIS HECTIC MONTH BE OVER ASAP PLSSSSSSSS. thanks

day;54

list for the day;

1. nope, but i wish i've been away
2. idk, but i doubt it
3. i got a coast capital bill ==;
4. yuuuuppp; love the way you lie
5. yupppp x2 at 22nd and at production way :)
6. hahah yuuup
7. YES YES YES,
8. yes :):):) love ittt
9. nope
1o. yes :)<3

okkk so im writing this a day later cause yesterday was kinda busy Orz.
Like all thursdays my dad had to work in the morning so i have to go to the bus stop myself, and like all thursdays i have and assignment due at 12:3o pm for buec. Due to my laziness i didnt leave my house till very late so i end up having to rush everywhere. But to make my rushing experience better ri was talking to b on the bus, but it was kinda hard to hear what he was saying cause the bus was so noisy...sorrrry :(:(. When i got to school to hand in my assignment it was 12:21 pm ! Talk about perfect timing :D.
Then it was buec class and it was so boring and the explaining was so bad i had no idea wth the prof was talking about. Then during my break i went to buy sourkeys from the convinient store near triple o's. I swear im adddited :(. Then after class me and hilda bused to starbucks to study but LOL hilda said shes never bringing me again cause i've been "hut jai" for the passed week,therefore DANiel wasnt there ytd lol. I studied Unit one , two frm cmpt and i got a iced shaken greentea lemonade, havent had one for a while,,,, so goooood :9. Then i had to go meet up my fam at metro, so i skytrained there. While skytraining there, there was this really creepy old dude that kept smiling and staring at me, chi sin, and we got off at the same stop. :S
chi sin.Then me mom dad n sis just walked around metro, and when i got to sirens i called b agn cause the nba game was over which means hes duk han now :) and then it was 9 so everything was closing and then we had to leave to go to dinner. Walk walk ha i realized my cmpt textbook and my sfu folder was GONE holy i quickly ran to sirens and started banging on their door to ask them to let me in, but it was there :(:( and then my sis caught up with me and i started crying and im like oh shit my 3 hours of hardwork mo lah, and shes like where are you going now and i said i might have lefted it atgarage so i ran there frm sirens, an i started banging their gate, and when someone finallycame out im like im soo sorry but i thk i left my binder here. And she smiled n ran inside and came out w/ my stuff. HOOOOOOLYYY i was so happy, i screamed THANKYOU THANK YOU SO MUCH!! my sistercaught up wth me and shes like lei siu sum d lah! Then i was panting like crazy so we had to sit down =='' Then we went to dinner at that beef noodle place :)) Then i left with my sister and we went to save on's to buy yogurt. When we got home dad slept so i went dwnsairs to make him a card and talked on the phone till 2 <3>

dAy; fifftty5

reserve (haha i wrote this and posted it before 12 cause i know im gna write about my day after 12am, so so sing mok yo!)
(does that mean i have super powers now? cus i found my other half.)

-1:ooam-
Why am i blogging so late today? welll i was gna blog arnd 12 but then steven called me and he needed help on assignment4 so i spent an hour teaching him. i almost had the urge to choke him to death at a point -o-. Anyways, lol i seem to use the word anyways alot, today was pretty good mainly cause b and i talked on the phone for around an hour and i didnt sleep in and miss his inbox!
OHOH and mommy gave him a number to dial so he can call me too :D:D, weee i love my mommy. After talking on the phone i hea-ed on my bed for another 10mins then i got up, brush teeth etc., went downstairs, cleaned up the kitchen and made dumplings and yuuu meennn <3 game ="o=" style="font-weight: bold;">80thousand ppl were killed in a year due to robbery or just randomly beat to death (i asked my dad why do they have to kill the person after they robbed them O_____O, apparently, stealing is a death crime in south africa, so if you steal and you dont kill that person and you got caught, yer gna die, so might as well kill the person right? mm hai kui 4, jaau hai lei 4), 1/8th of the women/girls there had been raped or sexually harassed before (uhm, wtf.). Then im like why are they still hosting the games there. Its cause of political reasons. Most of the previous games were hosted in "white" people countries cept for the year 2oo2 where it was co-hosted in south korea and japan. Soooo if they dont host a game in the african continent the black ppl would thk that fifa is racist :S. This is so complicated. Talking about korea, in north korea where its under dictatorship, apparently the soccer players there are all soldiers and they only make like US$2 a day or some shit. Wtf. After hearing this frm my dad i feel that the world is more fucked up than i thought. sigh.
ANYWAYS (agn) then i went to my room "study" but i just end up doing Q#3 and then watched the mysterious of love. I then spent and hour and like 40mins trying to do lab5 but i really dont know how, i thk i have to faan vvn agn. why am i stupid AND lazy =='. I thk its actually better when im at the sfu library cause yesterday i actually spent the whole day doing my buec :) <-proud face. haha, then family came back so we ate dinner like usual. Then around 1oish? I went dwnstairs plugged my lappy to the tv and started doing the hiphop abs routine thing, dude this thing is so hardcore, 3omins into it and im like sweating like crazy no kidding. Then mom saw me and started to do it too, haha we were so funny my mom kept going "push push push lift lift lift" and kept going "yiu gaam fey yiuuu gaam fey" hahahahahahah it was sooooo funn :D
Then my dad came and like did 2 moves and went this isnt fun im gna watch tv hahahahhaha
soooo fffffuuuunny. Then my mom was like ngor ding mm suen lah, tmrw lets start with an easier one, me: "thats the intro O_____O" ahhahahahah my moms expression was a WTF and a FML look lol. Hopefully i can keep up with it cause this is kinda fun and we get to listen to usher in the bg hahah :) lets see if i can d/l the pussycat dolls workout routine too, but i heard its pretty useless..hahah keep up doh day day do sin suen lah sharon sham! The instant i was done and covered in sweat and walked back into my room "you belong with me" came onn....WEEEeeee that means lgj is calling me :) i picked up but then jaau saau jor sin :(
so i called him back :):) chat jor for a while his frnd came and i had to go shower so we hung up. Horhorhor we talked 2x today <3 luccckkky meeeeeeee :):)

Ohohohohoh, i heard eminem's Not Afraid on muchtv tdy its really good, i thk his whole album, Recovery, is gna be pretty good, ronald said it got leaked last week i must find it and d/l it !!

day:56

idk why, but i really like this quote.

just in time before 12am.


-12:46am-

done showering, thought i'll save post before i go or else this post would be on June.16th instead of the 15th, and that would kinda ruin my "post a day, pic a day". I was gna skip today cause i really tired, i mean not sleepy tired just mentally tired, i just wanna go online and browse through pics and stuff. This morning im suppose to call but for some reason i fell back aslp and then i was late for class....agn. No wonder im not getting anything in buec. So class was boring and thn after class hilda had to tut so i went to the library to wait for her to start our buec assignment. Today was grad day, kinda sucks for these grads cus the weather was pretty lousy and it didnt get better till around 7pm. so while trying to get across from the office place to the library we (well it was me) bumped into brandon leeee OOO:, hes much smaller like shorter and skinnier than imagined :/ but nonetheless he was cuuute :x. bahaha. Then i weent to library from 2:30 to 730 and hilda cam to join me around 330, and she got me honey milk green tea :3
We did most of the assignment alright then we got stuck on Q3. The notes didnt help. The textbook dont even cover it. fack. just that one stupid Q. I could of handed in my hwk already so i dont have to rush to class on thursday @:< Then the usuals i bussed home blah blah blah,
Idk for some reason im really moody for most of the day, probably causei was in the library for so long n i could do that ONE q and siighhhhh tdy i was in such a rush to go out i forgot my ring, i spent the whole day suddenly going oh shit where did my ring go??!! and then i go ohhh its at home. Im so paranoid. i keot thinking i lost it, i had a million heartattacks cause of that ==' why am i so retarded. thats it for tdy, mooody day, mb i'll write more tmrw. nights.

ps; my mommy is so jang,
when i got home tdy i was so insanely tired already. she microwaved my dinner and in my "rice" bowl she gave me extra "veggie-squid" ho ho mei a ! :9 Then i went downstairs after 2hours of tv and browsing sites she reheated the soup for me ! THEN we i went dwnstairs agn to wash my bowl, she washed the pot for my soup already and she washed the bowl i was eating with while i was on the phone, then she asked me if i wanted strawberries i said sure she went to get it for me and it was ready cut into smaller pieces <3 i love you mommy :3

day : fifty-seven

Today i woke up at 8:o7am :) guess whyyyy :) :)
I called him afterward and i thk we talked for an hour or so?
Then i got up hoping ill do some school work. But i didnt, daddy made me some dumplings :D so i went to heat it up and watched calling love while eating it. After 12:2o-ish my daddy came back from grandpas to drive me to work. Today work was soooooo boring, mainly cause bedford was wrking and no one to blow water me. I saw this plastic clingy wrap thing for the body, i might get it to work out cus apparently it'll "gook ju" d fat so it'll sweat more :D. i reaaaallly have to stop eating, gosh, i look in the mirror and all i see is F-A-T. fml. 0rz. When i got off work it was pouring ice :S it was so scary, i ttried calling b agn but mm tong so i hung up plus my ride was here so couldnt really talk anyways. The usuals, got home eat dinner and wash dishes. Around 9:41pm i got an inbox from b so i called him :D yaaay. Then talk jor siu siu.
I just realized i really dont have much stuff to write each day, my days are actually pretty boring, sigh must thk of more stuff to write, actually must study more and eat less and do hwk.
i wish its mid august now so i dont have school anymore and i can cuddle; watch movies under the blanket (no i do not care that it might be really hot at that time) ♥ ♥
my head hurts agn, time to shower and sleep, time for schhhiooooolll & study tmrw :(

dAy; fiftyeight,

what a long day today was, long but happy day (:
so like all sunday mornings i had to wake up to go to work. This sunday morning was a lil different, tdy, i got a wake up text :D
Around 7:5o am i heard my phone vibrate a couple times which usually means i got a text from fb :D:D and it was from b. Ytd his family went to shen zhen thats why i couldnt reach him. We inbox-ed and wall-ed (Mii read our wall-to-wall and thinks me and b are lame :( and that she cant imagine me saying those stuff ) for a while then i had to get up to get ready for work. After getting ready i quickly drove to work, yet i was still late for 1mins25sec :( Then jennifer called in "Sick" cus she had to study. Today's work time went by pretty fast cus 1.)i was only working 9-2 and 2.)there were so much to stock, i didnt even text...much :P
(but an unexpected visitor came and jorr juu saai me work >=/)
i never felt so hard wrking, my section was so neat and filled :D horhorhor. Then around 1:35pm Mandy was like are you hungry? You work so early today and yer probably not gonna have food till 2pm, did you eat this morning? (haha of corz i didnt, i was late today 0rz) Sha: oh no, i didnt eat yet, my house didnt have anything (lol, lies). Mandy: heres a candy, go to backroom sin ho eat a, ;]
awww shes so nice :P At around 2 i got off work and walked to supergarage to find mii to eat with me cause she breaks at 2 :) I havent seen her for so loooooong we ate and chatted for a while and we bumped into feifei and gorgor haha, (how come i never see them come when i work ?>=( ) Then i went to get vvn a iced lemon tea and then i went to pick her up. She came over and we chill ha go ha on fb gum and then i did my assignment 1 and lab 5 horhorhroorhorhorh pro.
Its not reallly THAT hard, just that theres alot of stuff to remember, thank god vvn was there to tell me bout the tags and stuff. Shes so smart, if it wasnt for her i'll probably still be lost yo :D
Then me and her decided to go to the nightmarket for dinnnner WEEEEeeeee i love <3
we ate,
1. spicy squid
2. cheese smokies
3. HURRICANE POTATOES <333
4. yuu yook siu maai
5. and uber spicy fishballs
6.oh wait theres dragon bread candy too :):)
& i got a mr.banana pencil case !!!!! yaaay
After i dropped vvn off i quickly put on my handsfree and called b. Apparently i got really good timing cause he was waiting for a frd to watch A-team. We just chatted bout stuff, but it was kinda noisy so didnt really talk that long. it was just really nice to hear his voice :$$ haha.
&& to make things more faaaabulous, todays weather was EXCELLENT how i wish i was tanning at the beach and studying. haha, a wish a day :)
OHOHOHHO I FOUND OUT TIFFANY IS GOING TO SCHOOL NEXT WEEk WHICH MEANS SHE'LL BE STAYING HERE FOR A WHILE.WEeeee im so taking her to the beach.
thats all, gna go shower, i smell like "chaaau yaauu yu" ;p

ohoh i forgot, when me and vvn were heading out, this lil girl from my neighborhood kept talking to me cause my windows were open in the car. Then after a while she screamed and told me her frisbee was stuck on top of this bush and she cant reach it. so...being the tall girl that i am :P:P
i got off the car and went to help her get it. After i got it for her she said "oh im not tall enough to reach, and 2nd there was a spider web there i didnt wanna touch it, you walked right into." ==''
faccccck, thats really gross ==' i love how she didnt even say thankyou. the flaw of my perfectly productive and heebbbi day.
sigh goodnight

Day;FiFty-nin9

woowww, today i woke yo at 7:3o-ish, im so proud of myself.
Welllllllll, i didnt wake up myself, my phone vibrated 8 times so i was thking ohoh must be fb texts. HAS to be Leon, so i got up checked my cell, and guess what....IT REALLY WAS :D. sighhh, im gna scare him away at this rate =='. Anyways so i quickly grabbed my ipod touch n replied, i quickly sent hi b! first so he knows im awake then mb we can talk mmore :) im so sing mok. && today we FINALLY talked on the phone. I had to walk to the garage n sit in my mommy's car to talk on the phone (mainly cause i dont want my family to wake up to thk im weirder than they already thk i am LOL) we talked for an hour + haha soooo hebbbbbbbbbbiii! idk, just hearing his voice makes it seem like hes so much closer & its a little more comforting :$$
kay, ill write a bit later, hopefully ill get some studying done.

-12:26am-

nice i manage not do anything productive for the whole day...agn
i swore i study unit 1 to 4 today so ill be ready to do cmpt w/ vvn tmrw, and then go jogging, cause i sooo fat now, its not even funnyyy ;^;
but the usuals, i fell aslp, went online etc etc etc..fuck. i hate myself atm
& maybe my allergies are getting worst i feel so sick now, my head hurts, i wanna throw up and im sneeeezing achoo.
Today wrk was ok, i mean, i only worked 3 hours lol, how could it go wrong. The instant i got off i worked i tried callling, but then i got his dad's phone and im like oh shit, its only 12pm in hk hes probably wrking, then i called his number but then its not turned on or smth ==; then as im writing this now, i realized its a sunday in hk, his dad probably has a day off, god, im so retarded. I even tried calling his number 6x but it was just the same operator's voice " the number you have dialed...." :(:( hopefully i can hear his voice before wrk or smth. Then i went home made some food and just sat infront of my comp. My aunt called me frm hk, she got me this hco tube dress thing <3> shower, im surprised i kept up with this "write a post, post a pic" everyday, well its only day 3...lets hope i actually can keep up with it..

day;6iXty

-103oam-
well the day just kinda started for me and it seems like things are going wrong. i set my alarm to 800am ish so that i could wake up to go for a jog (FAIL) then shower, eat go out. But i got up at 1am-ish and saw that my phone had 4textmsgs, they were all frm michelle fb. :/ not that i dont want them, just that its not what im waiting for. Then at 7ish, i woke up agn, checked my phone and saw a wallpost and message from Leon Chan :)))))). But, i thk i made him upset...agn :( its == agn, and theres a list of things hes saying fuck you to me for :(( "not like my opinions are important right" ouch. its funny how i was talking to ronald earlier n im like i wanna get a tattoo, n hes like yer dad will kill you, im like well my dad has to accept me, im his daughter. Hes like oh, then np lah. im like no, leon would not let me. hes like oh, he'll accept it too. me: no, he can choose to leave me..sigh. And really ? "force" me into hearing bout his day? I practically waited the whole night for it. hes gone for 2 days and hes already upset with me. god sharon. small heart d, caring d.
Gna get dressed now, write more tonight.
hooollly i finally have time to sit dwn infront of my comp now -12:3oam-
so tdy was my 1215-915 shift, it was soooooo longgg and the time was so, s l o w.
but then during my break i went to study at the foodcourt and this lg/lb couple was sitting next to me and they starting making out. No, it wasnt just kissing and more kissing it was kissing boob grabbing and more kissing. omg. then the guy got up to go get food and it turns out that it was this guy called william, who's a frd of this "cousin" of mine, i thought he was duk e and wanted to pinch him, i totally DO NOT want to anymore. That means they are grade10. x _____x dude, im nth like that in grade 10, i was like a rice ball = _____=' sighh. Anyways then more wrking, talked w/ michael a bit, turns out he lives at dover too!!! O: & he always walks to wrk frm river road !!! WOW. i should try doing that. i can really lose weight, no wonder hes so skinnny. when work was FINALLY over, i went to meet hilda up and we went to estea<3

2 labs, 2 buec assignments, 1 cmpt assignment, 2 midterms && lots of wrk :( but i reallly need the money, i hate how they only give me more shifts when i have lots to do. fml. worst of all, i cant get a hug from him. just one hug will make me so much happier. sighhhh.
i wish i was more hardwrking -o- or smarter, i would wish for more time to do times...but haha i want time to go by faster,
thats all.

day;Sixty1

Today was a pretty tiring day. I had work at 4:15 so i asked my mom to lend me her car so I don't have to rush around so much. I got up at 9, checked my cellphone to see if he called, checked to see if I got any facebook text, nope, neither. Then i chilled around on the internet and started this blog, haha. Then I drove mom to work went home, while driving i got a text so i looked at it when i was at a STOP SIGN, see?! not so bad, lol, then it said "Leon Chan commented on your status" so im like oh wow my phone lags, cause i wasnt getting fb texts for the longest time now or it comes really late,but "my g ding action" is to go on fb whenever im home so i did, and i was so heeeebbbbbi, cause i did get an inbox and i got a status comment AND AND a wallpost haha, (okay yea, im obsessed, thats why i post it here so i dont scare him away orz.) then i played episode10 while drying hair, doing makeup etc. Drove to school, took the wrong exit cause i wasnt thinking and kept following the car infront of me. Sigh, i really got to stop doing that, im gna get someone killed. Then 2hours lecture of complete babble, i had no idea what Dobson was talking about. Went to get a tuna salad cause i was sooooo hungry but i cant eat much cause my DIET has started. I drank so much water today even i couldnt belive it. When i got back to class this gal spilled my salad everyone and she kept apologizing and asked me if i wanted another one. I said no cause I think its a msg from above that i really shouldnt be eating .___. After 10mins she came back with a Caesar salad, what a nice gal :)
After class i ran to my car, not cause im late its cause i wna watch the rest of episode10 LOL
See what a big impact lamfung have made in my daily life ? then holyyyy, it was the worst drive back to sfu EVER. There was a traffic jam the instant i turned left at tenth st. i was stuck for like 30mins then i practically ran the red at the turn right on to the bridge, lol i was in the middle of the road for like 2mins woooohh fun. Everything was smooth for a while then when i got richmond, shell rd? THE TRAIN WAS PASSSING. another 5mins goodbye :(
the minute i parked my car in the garage i ran to the kitchen, turned on the stove and out yu dan and seaweed in to make soup, then ran up to bathroom to wash hair and then the rest was makeup, episode11, eat. and and i was only 4 mins late to wrk, (ps i got home at 330, i made food,. washed hair, changed, watch episode11, in 45mins; do i hear a ninnnnnja ;) )
Work went by pretty fast, im kinda surprised, why? cause i met a new girl frm japan, nanae. Shes really cute, and i thought she was around my age, but shes actually 25 but looks nth like it. so i was talking to her and she told me she came from japan 3years ago. I asked her oh so you leave with yer family? shes like no. i live with my bf, hes a canadian tattoo designer. Can you imagine my face *O* it was glowwinnggg, haha. Thats not the point tho, she told me she came to canada cus she thks people in japan are too judgemental and stressful so its reallly tough living there. She got a tattoo on her lower back of a flower that her bf designed, and whenever she thks its to hard to be away frm her family and when she wants to give up to go back, she'll look at her tattoo and thk , theres no going back now, be strong. She said cause where she lives only "yakuzas" (=gangsters) got tattoos so she cant really go back. She got kicked out of a hotspring cause she forgot to hide her tattoo !! Shes so cool LOL . :P
Honestly i dont thk i could do what she did. Shes so brave, leaving her family and coming to a foreign place and learning a completely new language. haha i really like her :$
Thats it for today, work tmrw, saturday, sunday, monday and wednesday my cmpt assignment one due, thursday buec assignment4 due and friday cmpt lab4 due. WISH ME LUCK :) (hence my blog title being 11:11, i feel im gna need many wishes this summer)