i wish i would stop letting anger go over my head.
i always end up doing things i regret, saying things i regret saying
sigh, if yer not mad at me, then i guess you would read my blog.
so here it goes,
im sorry for hanging up on you like that,
im sorry i said yea i dont wanna talk to you
truth is i really really wanna talk to you
ever since you left everyday seems longer
im not used to this at all.
not being able to text you throughout the day
not being able to go find you everyday after school on tuesdays and thursdays.
i really really miss you
im sorry i never say these to you
im retarded and fucked up like that
im really scared that if i always call you i'll become too clingy & you'll get annoyed with me
im sorry im so depended on you
im gna learn to be tougher, i promise.
whenever i feel like yer mad at me & dont wanna talk to me,,it'll remind me of that dream i keep having nowadays,
in the dream you suddenly come to realizing im really not worth all your time and effort
whenever i thk of this dream my heart literally aches and ill get teary eyed.
my mom caught me having this dream once,
shes like whats wrong
i wanted to tell her about it, but she wouldnt understand.
i dont thk anyone does.
i dont understand it myself.
im rly messed up.
but no. it hasnt been like that for the past months,
ive never felt so,
so special, so loved
i dont know how to word it but
its like i dont have to put an effort to be tough
like its ok for me to act retarded and stuff
i dont thk i can survive if i lose you
im sorry for putting so much burden on you
its ok if you dont wanna talk to me every single day
i understand
i dont wanna be hogging you all the time
im sorry i dont "tum" you whenever you are unhappy
im really scared the more i say the more i fuck things up
thank you for putting up with me so many times.
i love you
i always end up doing things i regret, saying things i regret saying
sigh, if yer not mad at me, then i guess you would read my blog.
so here it goes,
im sorry for hanging up on you like that,
im sorry i said yea i dont wanna talk to you
truth is i really really wanna talk to you
ever since you left everyday seems longer
im not used to this at all.
not being able to text you throughout the day
not being able to go find you everyday after school on tuesdays and thursdays.
i really really miss you
im sorry i never say these to you
im retarded and fucked up like that
im really scared that if i always call you i'll become too clingy & you'll get annoyed with me
im sorry im so depended on you
im gna learn to be tougher, i promise.
whenever i feel like yer mad at me & dont wanna talk to me,,it'll remind me of that dream i keep having nowadays,
in the dream you suddenly come to realizing im really not worth all your time and effort
whenever i thk of this dream my heart literally aches and ill get teary eyed.
my mom caught me having this dream once,
shes like whats wrong
i wanted to tell her about it, but she wouldnt understand.
i dont thk anyone does.
i dont understand it myself.
im rly messed up.
but no. it hasnt been like that for the past months,
ive never felt so,
so special, so loved
i dont know how to word it but
its like i dont have to put an effort to be tough
like its ok for me to act retarded and stuff
i dont thk i can survive if i lose you
im sorry for putting so much burden on you
its ok if you dont wanna talk to me every single day
i understand
i dont wanna be hogging you all the time
im sorry i dont "tum" you whenever you are unhappy
im really scared the more i say the more i fuck things up
thank you for putting up with me so many times.
i love you
