hahahahah cuuuute i must show beh!
i wanna be nerdy too 8-)
i wanna be nerdy too 8-)
sigh i keep skipping days and not writing in here. im such a lazy ass.
Yesterday i was a zombie for most of the cause i had to stay up and finish my assignment 2. Then at around 6 we (me dad mom) went to yuki's house for dinner. Tiffany was there too :D shes sooo cute i spent most of the dinner playing with her. Shes growing up so quickly shes going to playgroups and daycares. I taught her how to count to 5 and how to say pig LOL. then we went to the nightmarket and it was kinda boring other than gorgor got me a itouch case :)
So then i was reading this long lost notebook yesterday. I thk it was from grade10 ? 11? & hoooollly. i was such a sad child. I mean its not even funny. All my writings were so...so..dark?
like my cuttings my cryings and just the things i do. Most of the pages were crinkly and smudge so i thk i was crying while writing most of them. After the "david" incident lol i love how its an incident. I was so terrible and dark and ugly for so long. I skipped so many classes, started hanging out with the "wrong" crowd. I was so pathetic i even started smoking for a week in attempt to get "their crowd". i never really talked about it with anyone, cause its so shameful. Whats wrong with me? Now that i thk back about it, i thk im really dumb and stupid for doing all those things for someone thats that worth it at all. I say that now cause ive moved on. the past memories dont haunt me anymore. But at that moment. It was hell. Everyday i would go to school and think of ways to get his attention, everynight i would read our old texts and old msn convos and cry myself to sleep. ERM. saaai mm saai a? Hes not worth it at all, as im writing this i dont know what i saw in him in the first place. not at all. I thk im just stubborn, thats why i wouldnt let go before. i wasted 3+ years for him. really? him? woow. i dont recall any happy memories with him, just many days of arguing and ignoring. aii. i was such a retard. I feel so much better after writing this out, idk why. Goodbye old diaries, goodbye texts goodbye msn conversations, in the trash can you go. Im gna replace them with good memories :)
my day for tdy hmmm
not much happened me and my sister woke up at 11 to clean up the room and vacuum the house and stuff cause uncle is staying for 2days. Then we went to eat at mcds cause not enough time to eat before uncle comes. Then me and +jeh just chilled a bit till he came. Then im suppose to study but i fell asleep ORZ.then we went to eat at juuuueee lol AGN. at 6.
when i got home lgj was online so i got to msn him (((: but my days are kinda boring so not much to talk about. He got a sore throat :( cause dom is kinda sick and spread jor bey kui. Hopefully he gets better before going on his trip D: . talking about being sick, my fucking allergies are back. My eyes are so watery and red and swollen and i kept sneezing and shit. I look like death. should be better soon *crossfinger. i really really really cant wait till next tuesday (:
better days to come hang in there sharon cm sham ! :)
sigghhhh i cant wait till the fun part of summer starts
