haha, aww this is really cute
today was such a super duper uber tiring day.
Mainly cause i slept from 430am to 83oam then went to work at 1oopm today. This morning i talked to lgj for about an hour. It was much better than the last convo we had. (heehee chicken wrap ;) ) Just talking/thinking about sleeping on his bed makes me so happy, i really cant wait till i can actually sleep on lgj's bed agn and geeep juu him :$$. Work was pretty hectic cause there were sooo many customers today. But its actually a good thing cause that way i wont thk about being sleepy. After work my +jeh picked me up and we went home for dinner. Dad was done cooking so we got to eat instantly. My dad offer to wash the dishes today so that me n +jeh could go out. After we changed, me and feyfey +jeh went biking (her) & rollerblading (me). We went alll the way to the oval and back and went around the dover park 4 times. We were only gna go around it twice but then we saw mommy so we went around the park twice with her. It was fun just chilling with my +jeh , cause i havent done so for a while. Me and +jeh were being so silly cause we kept singing random songs when we biked/skated and we raced each other :D:D. When i got home i saw lgj's inbox, so i called him. Turns out hes changing so i called him a bit later. Then he had to go yum cha w/ his daddy so he said he'll call me back. So i went to shower. After i showered +jeh told me my phone rang, so i went dwnstairs to call lgj back. We talked for a while, 30mins? jaau hang up cause it was really noisy at his place and i had to go study.
So ytd, was a pretty bad night. thats basically why i didnt really sleep. After i hung up on lgj i felt really bad and i wanted to call him back but i got too scared. So i inbox-ed him. i felt kinda stupid for inbox-ing him when i know he doesn't really get the internet nowadays. i inbox-ed him anyways, then i just kinda played with my itouch beside my parents bed under my covers until he replied. For the first hour i kept thking "great sharon, lei wan chut foooor lah, hes actually mad at you now" after that i started crying. im really scared he doesnt wanna talk to me anymore and got fed up with my stupid attitude. Great. Im the person who "jo chor yeh" and im the one who's crying? Wow, i am a fucking retard. In the second hour i kept thking 4lah hes really not talking to me anymore what am i going to do. I honestly dont thk i can survive not seeing him for 2months let alone not being about to talk to him. around 2 hours later, at 2-ish am lgj replied. When i saw that i got a fb inbox on my touch i wast so happy, but his reply was kinda short and it ended with an lol. Then i thought , great. hes talking in a sarcastic-ronald-lol tone. Like the usual me who's a fucking stubborn ass who loves to "daaau hei" i gave him a one word reply. & the following replies i did were really sarcastic and shit. Cause im like that. i think i got this trait from my dearest daddy. Whenever i argue, even when i know im wrong, i'll argue and argue until i win. But everytime i do that, i'll regret it right afterwrds, cause i always end up saying things that are mean or sound really cocky. I mean when i daau hei with my family they dont really have a choice but to make up with me afterwards cause they're my family. (In my opinion, they are probably being punished for doing smth bad in their past lives thats why they are stuck to have me in their family). But on the other hand when i daau hei with lgj, he gets to choose. he doesnt have to put up with all these shit and attitude i give him. He can just go "fuck this, im done with this shit". But yet he doesnt. & he always end up blaming himself and tum-ing me, when im always the one who screwed up. So i swear, im going to be a better lpj. Im gna be more considerate. And i wont use my manly voice when i talk to lgj. I'll do my best to tum him whenever hes not happy. I'll tell my lgj everything that happens to me, whether its happy or sad. Cause, to be really corny, honesty is the key to a healthy r/s rigggghtttt??. (im so lame ==")
Lastly, i promise myself to not let the past r/s and unhappiness ruin this one. Cause this one is different from the previous one. its much much much better.
iloveyou lgj forever.....+1 :)
